malay oral...
was complete bullshit.passage was friggin crap.stumbled and stammered all the way.half way through i gave up so i just rushed my way through the last paragraph.convo was even more bullshit.couldnt utter more than one pathetic sentence.kept on repeating the sentence like wth.got prompted like 84720947432 times.
pfft.it was only at the last qn that i was able to talk more.MORE only not MUCH.i'm very much ashamed that i cant even speak my own language fluently.and for once reading berita harian didnt help.prob because i only rushed thru the paper at what 15 mins before reporting time.OH GOD HELP ME.i've got two solutions.watch the news on suria every night and speak malay with my parents.perhaps i'm good with conversational malay in pri sch as my grandparents was living with us and i speak malay with them.EEEEEEE I WANNA STRANGLE MYSELF.bahhhhh.
anw i'm in love with another thing.
THE VERONICAS(:
yep their songs are awesome(: but so far i've only heard snippets of their other songs except 4eva which is in my blog playlist(:

come on baby we aint gonna live forever<3>



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i'm a happyhappy soul
lmao.i just came back from quran night class.the ust said my reading is very nice to listen to.lol.so she told me to read another page.i havent read that kitab like for 2 weeks due to period.hahah.yeah and i'm happy because that ust has pretty high standards and for her to compliment you wld be like WOW.hahah.YAY.now i'm motivated to attend those classes((: anw school was fine.I PASSED HIST. OHKAY(: i totally expected to fail la.english was...roflmao.watched angela's ashes disc 2.had some parts that was not suitable for viewing in school.hah. apparently ms neo hadnt watched it before so she has no clue what the class was guffawing about.the whole class was awake due to the excitement.and i'm currently on love with several things.
1.dawn's skin
2.window to the past from the harry potter soundtrack by john williams.
3.my trombone(yes my trombone((:)
4.playing around with paintshop pro
etc;...and other stuff too...
lol okay that was very random though.i'm just in a HAPPY mood.
and has anybody got hafabra overture recording?

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normal day...
got bored during maths so i came up with my target list for end of yrs...
1.Maths-A1
(why not. i proved i can)
2.English-A2
(yepp)
3.Mother Tongue-A1
(yes A1 coz i know i can do it)
4.Science-B3
(sci is such a goner.i cant possibly get A.even i did get a1 the rest of my common test marks would pull me down anw)
5.Literature-A1
(ambitious?why not.when there's a will there's a way)
6.History-??
(i have no idea what to expect of history)

yeah.and i'm gonna stick to it(: english was boring as usualo.ms neo told us abt some project postcard that we're gonna have to do tmr.D&T common test.hah i totally forgot ok.didnt study at all.so i lost 14 marks already.had band. did hafabra and green mountains...it's in jap la but i forgot.sec 1s joined us...sounded pretty crap.jia hui was...frustrating.liyana gave up on her.i dont know how to handle her.pfft.and from now on i'm gonna be playing part1 /part2.one of the thirds will be playing 2nd part/3rd part.not decided yet.

now i know the ABSOLUTE TRUTH.how could i be so BLIND?
dont waste your time.
drama time's over.hear that.OVER!so strip off the make-up and those stupid fake smiles.

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when boredom strucks
last night was freezing.seriously i was shivering ok.but i was too sleepy to get myself a blanket so yeah.went off to madrasah and it was typically cold in the classroom.we were frozen and numb by the end of the day.yep then got home and did my homework and got bored.so i browsed deviantart and found a couple of familiarly hilarious stuff such as...


emo harry...


one of the street teamers has this...


this is kinda cute...


and you can spend your time on this...


scissors; paper; stone...


and lastly...


there is one on george bush resembling a monkey.its damn hilarious.but it's kinda offensive so i shall not put it on.the rest are just random stuff.

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sentosa performance
today went without a hitch.but it was kinda sway as everytime we get to the stage area it starts raining.hahah.but yeah i managed to play.got my voice back this morning but it is still VERY low.yeah everyone was sweating like hell.xiling gave us pink roses.yep and my pitching was kinda sucky.but concerto's pitching was ok.which is surprising.postcard was utter crap.cant seem to pitch the high note during combine but am able to during sectionals.bleh.i cant breathe properly so yeah.john williams was ok.managed to play everything.then xiling got obsessed with the lorry.hahah.ms low said we were fast(: and ppl commented that we were good.hahah i wonder...my pitching was seriously off la.esp for g.then i almost got a heat rash.lucky for the bus my face got cooled down fast.oh yeah i've got an idea for dance(:it clicked right after the perf.ohwells i'm wiped out.

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i lost my voice :(
that is a bad thing coz sentosa perf is TOMORROW!!shit.i need my voice back dammit.today had that dance assessment.screwed up.my knee got scraped bad.so yeah wrecked my dance.then before lunch polished instrument with erza. SO SHINY XD. bet it's not gonna make a diff tmr anw.polishing efforts always go to waste once my trombone gets back into the casing. study session was fun.slacked all the way.hahah.disturbed ppl and laughed at pics.MR I COOL MY ASS(: i laughed too much.IT COSTED ME MY PRECIOUS VOICE!oh yeah i got a friggin A1 for maths ok(: kinda funny coz i got full marks for those complicated qn but wrong for simple basic qn.but sci burst my bubble.asshole.i failed ok.tskk.short lived happiness.yeah and my malay dropped kinda bad.got A2.oh man..i gotta speak more malay AND read berita harians.
yeah and i've been feeling like an old woman lately.first i've got non stop headaches which i'm getting tired of.second, my knees are so weak taking the stairs is SO torturous.bleah.
good luck ppl for sentosa perf tmr(:

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snap out of it!
today was...unbelievable yet believable.oh what crap is this.anw i found out today that basically no one can be trusted in this world.i mean it NO ONE.except for my sister.but she's clueless.at least she lends a listening ear(:yep.seriously need to sort out my head.i'm getting a serious headache.i think my head's abt to burst into a million pieces(is that a sign of dying).i dont know whats wrong with me but i really think it's either i'm gonna die or the world's gonna end soon.anw i dont know if i shld be mad or not.i mean like if you've got the guts to pull a prank atleast have the guts to apologise dammit.dont like put on a facade and prtend nothings wrong.i wanna get rid of all this shit thats distracting me and concentrate y'know.even if my life's ending i could at least make full use of the remaining time to make me and my parents proud.i'm sick of your drama and i'm tired of playing along.

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yay.i finally got it(:
hahah.after an afternoon trying to figure it out i finally understand the angle of incidence;angle of refraction;angle of reflection etc.the answer was right in front of me-my father.he's so freaking good in phy and maths i feel like plucking out his brain and borrowing it for tmr:/hahah.

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mugging
ohwells.supposed to be mugging but since my brain have been working overtime since 9 o'clock this morning i figured out a few minutes of blogging wont hurt.yesterday was well full of science and MOV.hahah.my parents dont believe i'm actually studying my ass off.they keep on telling me to close my tablet when i was reading the MOV notes and the sci textbook(which is kinda helpless, the txtbk i mean).i was like hell no when i'm in the middle of shakespeare.kept giving me looks that said are you really studying or just doing illegal things.hahah.got exasperated and sat with my back facing them so that they can see what is really going on on my screen.went to IMM in the afternoon.supposedly to buy my SECOND HAND phone.when my dad first told he was gonna get me a second hand phone i was like wth.waited for 12 FREAKING MONTHS and all i get is a phone formerly used by god knows who. hopefully he wont suddenly come back with the second hand sony erricson k700i and wait for my hopefully good common test results and then get me a sony erricson k750i instead.but then again what if my results are well...plainly suck.my chances of ever getting a new phone may get blown away in a snap.no more like whoosh. ohwells i'll just sit here and do my best for common tests and let the God decide.
today was more science but with english compre and vocab and berita harian.read like 4 berita harians ok.didnt read it for abt a week and a half.relied on the titles to know whats going on.oh yeah abt the death of King Fa'ad of Saudi Arabia.gosh if the two eclipses and the chaos in mecca occur....i'd better go ard and start apologising to ppl and do more prayers.*shudders.plus the fact that i died in my dream....*breaks into cold sweat.i'd better stop thinking about death and focus on common tests for now.gotta go back to TRYING TO UNDERSTAND THE ANGLE OF INCIDENCE SHIT.

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national dal celeb.
woke up to cramps and a runny nose.didnt feel like going to sch.but i was performing and no one else would be playing second part.then aft i had finished dressing up and everything the cramps started again.god it was super painful.couldnt even move.was just sitting on my floor clutching my stomache and groaning.took panadol.but the panadol ony started kicking in at 6:55.after the pain subside i put on my socks and took out my shoes and got a heart attack.apparently my sister had changed my laces the night before without me knowing.pfft.couldnt scream at her as my cramps were coming again and she's gone to school anw plus the fact that i'm running effing late.
once i reached sch i was like oh shit liyana's gonna kill me.ran to the music room.BIG MISTAKE.it triggered more cramps.ran up the stairs to the hall to look for emily to get keys.BIG MISTAKE 2.more cramps.note to self:do not drink to much pepsi when the month is approaching.tskk.just sat at the stairs clutching my stomache.then the upper sec went down so went to look for liyana.said i cant possibly play with my ugh cramps.she told me to get MC.then went down.cramps were getting worse.remembered the pink pills in my pocket.hahah.took them with the water from the water cooler. first time did that.was kinda awkward.popped the pill into my mouth and drank from the water cooler.result:the pill slid down my tongue and left a trail of bitterness.bleagh.luckily i had the water in my mouth already.hahah.decided to play coz the pink pills were kinda powerful but lasts for a short time unfortunately:(
so went up the hall again to get keys.then aft abt 20 mins cramps kicked in AGAIN.luckily erza had a bottle of water with her so i didnt have to go down and repeat the water cooler process again. i played ok.my pitchings for post card were kinda well...my high notes suck.pitchings for abba was fine. yep.
aft the whole thing had to borrow money from janice as i left my purse in the car in a rush:p ohwells.
so in the end i just have to give an mc or letter for my tardiness.

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weird dream
had a super weird dream last night
dreamt that i could see ghosts spirits
there was one in my very own house
apparantly it was a very harmless spirit
which chooses my room to live in
anw we became friends
and i DIED
it was totally weird
i dont usually remember dreams
but this one is stuck in my head
probably coz the spirit hugged me
and it reminded me of someone
*shudders*
oh god,FREAKY.
oh and in the dream my "mum"
was a different woman
and she's a bitch.
oh and i visited NUH
yes that hospital
except it's totally different
and was renovated
and super colorful
and HUGE
but when i went there to visit a relative
i could see spirits everywhere
and they are totally weird
coz they look like ET and the cute aliens you see in movies
oh damn
i'm at home alone right now
shall not elaborate further
freaking creepy ok.

anw
had study session yesterday
kinda productive
and super funny
hahahh
out of boredom we decided to pretend someone hacked
into mine and erza's msn account
and the bassist from wesley was online
so we went like hi
and he didnt reply so we started crapping
and put my name is
brandy.wine.beer.vodka.gin.tonic.martini
hahah
then signed in to erza's acc.
did the same thing
and then we were laughing like hell la
had stomachache
then we went
hey g'day. t'day is like my b'day.and its f'day coz its d'day
didnt mean to put that up
coz its like insulting their accent
but someone acc. either touched the touch pad
coz the mouse was hovering over the send button
or i pressed the enter button
but i knew i didnt pressed anything
hahah
bloody funny la
yah then xiling came so we quickly closed the tablet
studied sci. maths and lit
did the resistance thing and indices and MOV
erza know a lot man
must learn from her
pay 110% attention in class
act. i pay attention leh
but somehow in class i understand MOV
but once ms goh leaves the class
i stare at the extract and go 'huh'

COMMON TESTS IN LESS THAN A WEEKS' TIME
oh mannn.

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fcuk.
havent blogged for quite awhile
ohwells
ms tan swapped farina’s and santhiya’s seats
i’m bloody pissed ok
not because of the swap
but that bitch’s guts
like wtf la
first day sit beside me wanna show attitude
she wrote something on her table that totally suits her
however she drew an arrow pointing to my table
in other words me
LIKE HELLO WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW ME THAT WELL SANTHIYA
SO DON’T GO ARD CALLING ME [quote] HYPOCRITICAL BITCH [/quote]
OH PLEASE I DON’T HAVE ANYTHING MUCH AGAINST YOU
SO WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM
NOT HAPPY THEN GO TALK TO MARIA LA
GET HER TO CHANGE YOUR PLACE
I WONT MISS YOU
ANYONE OR ANYTHING ELSE IS BETTER THAN YOU
EVEN A ROTTING SLAB OF BEEF
GO BITCH ABT ME IN MANDARIN ALL YOU WANT
BEHIND MY BACK LITERALLY
BUT DON’T THINK YOU CAN FOOL ME
DO YOU THINK I’M STUPID OR SOMETHING
LOFL
SERIOUSLY LA GO GET YOURSELF A HUMONGOUS MIRROR
AND STARE AT YOURSELF BEFORE CALLING PPL NAMES.
:rolls eyes:
mygod .
i seriously feel like pulling off her limbs one by one and throw them in to the different oceans and seas.
like wth la.
even farina don’t do such stuff la.
EXTRA.
DO YOU THINK YOU’RE SO POP OR SOMETHING
MORE LIKE POOP.
grargh.

anw gonna blog abt last week
here goes
on thursday had band
but at abt 4 went town with the whole section to buy stuff
spent like 50 bucks in 45 mins la
we were like popping into shops and getting our stuff super fast
except for the last item
[quote] 15 bleeding bucks [/quote]
saturday.
yay.
i finally got that mini compo i’ve wanted since the last two months
my previous one screwed up
ohwells
wanted to buy my new phone and the wireless modem
but there was no time
tsk.
dad told me to wait for national day which he hopes has better deals and offers
shall stop here
cant be bothered with the other days
perhaps another time.

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